depressing.
November 24, 2008
Y’know, I’ve been trying to remember if I was angry or sad or anything like that when I was growing up and I can’t even remember anymore. I think I was and remain more passive aggressive than anything else. That comes with the territory of being meek, though. Was I hard to deal with as a teenager? I am now, I’m sure. But, that’s Robin’s problem now. I take some kind of strange, strong pleasure in scaring that girl. Putting on a gorilla mask and jumping out of a closet just to scare her to tears makes me chuckle even as I write this. Am I evil? No. I’m awesome.
I’ve been feeling that sense of hopelessness creeping up on me recently. I think it’s because of the cold weather.I get like this in the winter and for some reason I never have a warm bedroom. I can’t understand it! Every place I’ve lived in is freezing! I can’t get work done like this! I’ve been on the edge this past few days. I just feel like everything I do is stupid and I ought to quit or something. It’s been a very strong feeling lately. Having to constantly bother people is not really in my character, but it’s something that I have to do with my cartoons. I have to make editors understand/believe that I’m worth something.When I send things out in the mail I always imagine my package in a huge pile that won’t even be looked at. It’s rough, but you have to send it out anyway.
I woke up thinking I was sick because my throat was sore. But, it’s just because my room sucks and the heaters are for looks. I’m moving back to Arizona, where I can get beat up and chased home all over again. I guess I should start putting disclaimers on my complaining blogs so nobody gets suckered in to reading this garbage.
Sorry guys!
I love that you put Matt Crane in that comic. You forgot his gross cast though. Hehehe.
Hey man, come on back down here.
Hey Noah!
just wanted to offer my thoughts on the matter: As you know, i am Denver’s Largest Cartoonist- so my perspective is different, but not altogether dissimilar to yours.
Of course, ive always wanted to be a bit smaller, not quite as oafish, and to be honest, a great deal prettier than i am. (i was always into the lovely airy goth-type girls but they were always into the poetic types and i seethed that i was not of that calliber)
So i just am offering, i guess, that to be a weirdo cartoonist kid is to be a neurotic type who sometimes wishes he was what he ain’t. (though in all honesty, i think its just a human thang.)
As a skinny guy youve got some serious advantages- you can probably find clothes that fit and that are “stylish”. You are almost certainly much faster on a bike or swimming. You can expect to live a much longer and healthier life than your bloated breathren. You will feel at home if you ever get to go to Europe and lastly, pretty goth girls will dig you.
fucking prick!
on another subject, i lived in vermont for a couple of years recently, and the winters there made Denver’s pretty damn mild and pleasant in comparison. One thing that seemed to help me, and i realize its totally fucking gay, is tanning booths. The sunlight thing is a real deal and a lot of people suffer from Seasonal Afected Disorder (SAD)
and you might be one of em! for me feb and march are the worst.
but ive always liked the Xmas lights and it occured to me, or i read, that it makes sense that on the darkest days of the year we would be compelled to make a whole bunch of silly bright light.
anyways!
felix
Hi there, im here because your brother linked this ¿blog? from his column in newsarama. To the point: stop complaining. You’ve got talent and that’s enough. are you doing what you wanna do?…if not, start soon. Greetings!